I think the worst word for me this week is disappointment. You know when you’re trying so hard to do things right and then this little incident led you to think really hard about yourself and all your ways. Thats how i felt when this person called me a disappointment. You know i always laugh at problems and put my little headphones on infront of the people that doubts me but behind that i cry, like really cry hard in my sleep. They say that crying is a good releaser of anguish and sadness inside you but for me crying is not a positive thing to do. Crying for me is when i pitty myself too much. What does the effect of the word on me?
It’s like someone dumped a big bucket of ice on me, i felt cold, felt desserted, felt numb and i felt like i’m really miserable.
You might say, ‘oh maybe that person doesnt really mean what she’s talking about.’
Oh trust me she meant that, but even if she didn’t mean it im sure she like to use that word sometime now and she’s definitley pick the right timing. Its like she’s saving the word for a little mistake i did. I have a list of my biggest mistakes in all time and yet she choose to piss me off with a tinie tiny mistake. You know what surprises me is that my own mom didnt even said that to me. Its been an interesting week but i dont think i can handle another interesting week like this.

Mistake. Worthless. Disappointment
Thats me.